Courage, hope, faith and laughter. Together, these things make life in a difficult world worth living.
As my life draws to a close from stage IV metastatic prostate cancer (so the doctors say – so far I have proven them wrong!), I find myself wrestling to embrace these things as the greatest realities in my heart.
I wrestle with God – why has He allowed so much suffering into my life? And why enough joy and laughter to make me feel there is always something deeper beneath the struggle – something infinitely greater and good?
I wrestle with others – why does my desire for intimacy and love so often collide with, rather than connect me deeply to others?
I also wrestle with myself – I want to be a very different man than what I am, but my brokenness is like a mountain that I can’t shovel away.
So much wrestling! Years ago as a boy, I used to jump in bed with my dad and wrestle with him on Saturday mornings. He won easily, but those times together always ended in laughter and joy for me.
That’s what this blog is about – a wrestling match with the One who is stronger and wiser than all of us which ultimately ends in great joy.
For that matter, maybe that’s what all of life is about.
I’m counting on it!