As the saying goes, I have good news and bad news. The good news is my PSA level continue to fall. It is currently at 1.1 (down from 21 at my diagnosis). The bad news is my cancer seems unimpressed. My last MRI shows the cancer continuing to spread up and down my spine. My pain reflects this! I am now on Percocet at night with the side benefit of sleeping wonderfully, even while singing hymns (Betsy says) while I sleep.
Yesterday I had a consult at Shands Hospital in Gainesville, FL. Are you ready for this? The doctor there is wondering if I even have prostate cancer. He thinks instead that it may be “cancer of an unknown origin.” My case goes before their “tumor board” next Tuesday, so it will be good to have several doctors looking at my very unusual cancer.
If it is prostate cancer, he says I will be unique in his practice – he’s never seen anyone like me before. I have learned that while this may make me feel special, it is not good for treatment or outcome. Too much head scratching.
We will know more next week after the tumor board meets (I didn’t even know there was such a thing; now one of my tumors will be the center of their attention). At this point, I hope it is prostate cancer as longevity is a little better, they say.
Either way, I am in good spirits, trusting God, and ready for whatever He has for me. Here is one of my new favorite quotes:
“Why fear death, it’s the greatest adventure of all.” – Peter Pan.
Family news has us awaiting a new granddaughter next month (she is due in 3 weeks)! There is lots of scrambling to take care of things with this new prognosis being less favorable, so we are all a little ragged, but hanging in there.
Drew (my son-in-law and new partner) continues to amaze all of us at how good he is in caring for my clients and solving their computer issues. They also think he is “charming” and are increasingly asking for him instead of me when they call. Me? I am getting the senior citizen’s discount more and more and am asking Drew to teach me some of the things he knows, the young whipper-snapper.
Everything changes, doesn’t it? Sometimes, quickly, and without warning. It is so humbling. But I am grateful to be on this earth, glad for the continued opportunity to serve God and others, and am looking forward with relish to the life to come.
For now, this is enough.
I hold each of you in high regard and count it a great privilege to be counted as your friend.